We have 10 weeks to go until our due date- at times that feels like a really LONG time and at others it feels like it is coming up so quickly that I can hardly breathe.
I feel as though we are somewhat in denial about the impending birth of our daughter; the reality of having a baby has not totally set in yet. I’m told that this is normal and my aunt informed me that she was in this denial even during labor & delivery. My mom and a friend of mine are throwing us a baby shower in the middle of September, so maybe we’ll feel like this is more real once we have some baby gear in the house!
We’ve also been blessed with a pretty easy pregnancy thus far and pray that this continues, which might be why it doesn’t seem real. My biggest complaints are the sinus congestion and the weight thing, which were both major gripes of mine before this all started anyways. We have friends that have been on bedrest, one that has been on hospitalized bedrest for the past 5 weeks and will likely continue to be until her due date (which is the end of November!), and another who has a breech positioned baby and is measuring too small for reasons unknown, some which could be serious and some which are not so serious.
I’m starting to get a little paranoid- like ok, what’s wrong with ours? I read Kristin Nicholas’ (knitwear and textile designer) blog entry about her daughter Julia’s condition and I got a little freaked out. On top of that, the next book in the series I am reading by Karen Kingsbury, entitled Summer, involves a pregnancy where there is something wrong with the baby, in addition to a few other storylines. Sadly, I won’t be reading that one anytime soon, even though I am dying to know how Katy and Dayne are doing as newlyweds on the set of their movie!!!!!!! I haven’t had an ultrasound since 20 weeks or so, as the doctors have had not reason to do so yet. My blood pressure is fine, I measure fine, I’m not bleeding, no cramping, I’m not retaining any excess fluid, the baby’s heartbeat continues to be strong…I’m told that eventually the doctors will take an ultrasound to check the position of the baby but I just really want to see her and hear them say that everything is fine. I have an OB appointment next Thursday, so maybe my fears will be put to rest. Or maybe this is just the start of the motherly worrying!
On the lighter side, some interesting things I have experienced during pregnancy lately:
1- Misjudging the space I can fit through, ie: in the grocery store trying to squeeze between someone’s cart and the milk case, inevitably causing chaos. So far though I have not knocked over a display, though I fear I might one of these days.
2- Bending at the waist is no longer a comfortable option. So much for washing the floors by hand. Sorry mom, I have unwashed floors.
3- Random strangers are nicer to me- when walking to the car in a parking lot, people wait patiently for you, grocery store shoppers don’t get angry when you stand in their way by accident.
4- Waking up at 3 am for two hours because a stuffy nose won’t let me sleep. So Nancy Grace reruns keep me company while I sniffle.
5- People asking when I’m due and they act surprised, like I should be giving birth NOW, or ask if I am having twins. NEVER EVER do those two things to a pregnant woman!!! I’m paranoid enough about how I look.
We’re scheduling a bunch of things to do in September, meeting with the pediatricians, taking a tour of the hospital’s labor and delivery wing, and starting childbirth classes, so our plate is full next month! Until then I will just wait and knit and sew, trying to train Mercy to respond appropriately to baby cries 🙂